DBMA

Growing up I never thought I would get married and I was certain I would never have two little girls who would have me wrapped around their little fingers.  But now that I have that, I wouldn't trade any of it for the world.  Yet on almost a daily basis I don’t even think about how blessed I really am.  

When I was giving our girls a bath the other night Brie handed me her crayon (yes the same crayon that Ava ate), and asked me to write some letters on the inside of the bath tub.  First she asked me to write a “B” for Brianna, then an “M” for mommy, then “D” for daddy and “A” for Ava.  We ended up going through our ENTIRE family which took some time, but for whatever reason she wanted our four letters on one section of the bath tub while the rest of them were scattered throughout the rest of the tub.  After I wrote out all the letters I just sat there and stared at the four of ours, D B M A (at least until Brie  sent a small tidal wave of pee infused bath water in my direction), and I think for the first time it REALLY hit me that I have a family.  Yeah, I have obviously known that I have had a family for a while now, I’m not that oblivious.  But all too often I tend to plow through life without really conceptualizing the magnitude of what God has blessed me with.  I still am just amazed that he would even give me such an incredible and important honor as this.  Sometimes I wonder if he really does know me, because if he knows me the way I know me I don’t think I would trust me with such a huge responsibility.  But I know with his unconfined knowledge of who I am he knows me in ways that I can’t begin to imagine and trusts me more than I will ever trust myself.  Psalm 139: 1-6 explains it perfectly. 

Psalm 139: 1-6: O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.  You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.  You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.  Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord.  You hem me in – behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.  Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.

It is really nice to know that God knows me better than I know myself.  Because with how easy it is for me to become distracted by what this world has to offer it’s good to know that at least one of us knows where we are going.