Exodus 9:16 - For Scripture says to Pharaoh: "I raised you up for this
very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be
proclaimed in all the earth."
This has been one of my favorite verses for a long time. I wanted God to display his power through me
as he did through Pharaoh…uh with some exceptions of course, no plagues of
locusts, no endless amount of frogs, not being covered in boils would ne nice,
no plague of hail mixed with fire, no hardening of my heart, no excessive amounts
of flies, no loss of my first born, and well nothing inconvenient or
uncomfortable at all. I think that’s
fairly reasonable don’t you?
In today’s society we don’t see a lot of people with leprosy,
being covered in boils, having their towns over-run by frogs, being plagued by
locusts, or even being stoned to death. What we do see though is depression that is so
severe it is often debilitating, addictions (drugs, alcohol, pornography,
etc.), that are so strong they destroy not only the addicts life but that of
their family as well, materialism that is so strong that it becomes more
important than the people around us.
Through all of these trials, imperfections, and through our
suffering the hope we have is that while we are ALL messed up we can still be
used for God to display his power. “God
doesn’t call the qualified he qualifies the called” (Henry T. Blackaby). “Noah was a drunk, Abraham was too old, Jacob
was a liar, Leah was ugly, Joseph was abused, Moses was a stuttering criminal,
Samson was promiscuous, Gideon was doubtful, Rahab was a prostitute, Jeremiah
was depressed, David had an affair and committed murder, Elijah was mentally
unbalanced and suicidal, Isaiah preached naked, When God called Jonah, Jonah
ran away, Naomi was an old widow, Job went bankrupt, Peter betrayed Jesus, The
Disciples fell asleep, Martha was a worrier, The Samaritan woman was a multiple
divorcee, Zacchaeus was greedy, Paul was engrained in another religion, Timothy
was too young and had ulcers, Lazarus was dead, __________ (your name) was…__________. But regardless of our failures God can still
use us if we allow him to do so. But I
caution you if you truly do want to be used by God he very well may take you
down to depths of depression, doubt, fear, physical illness that you have never
experienced before. Not because he wants
you to be miserable or to see you suffer but because he wants to be able to
display his power through you so that others can see that he is good, faithful,
all powerful, and loving.
So why am I writing all of this? Well to be honest I feel that this is where I
am in my life. I am unemployed, our
finances are tight, my depression seems to be getting worse by the day, my
anxiety from trying to find a job keeps growing by each rejection letter I receive
in the mail, and at times my self worth is so low that I often wonder why I am
here. I am not trying to complain or
make you feel sorry for me because I know many of you have been through or are
going through even more difficult situations than I am. The thing is though I have often prayed that
God might display his power through me; I just never really understood what
that might look like or how difficult that might be and for all I know I still
don’t know what that fully looks like.
The one thing I do know is that my faith and hope rest in him regardless
of the outcome. “For I know the plans I
have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future” (Jeremiah 29:11).
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